Thursday, November 20, 2008

cuti dan cuti

Posted by Mrs Haiqal at 6:50 AM 0 comments
starting last thursday.. aku dah start cuti for almost 45 days.. cuti semester.. class will start back on 2 january 2009...masa kerja dulu cuti paling lama 4 hari je.. sekarang.. my wish to have more time has comes true.. so, im gonna make full use of it.. start with list thing to do everyday..

for myself
1) susun all my books and file for the last sementer (done)
2) kemas brg baby kimi yang lama and organize baby stuff for this new baby.. takut bukak semester takde masa nak buat semua nih
3) kemas my room and create my dream list again.. collect picture and so on..
4) survey new hp or pda or pdaphone.. going to buy it this december.. aku mmg buta it.. susah btul..
5) bayar semua hutang PTPTN (done)
6) gantung frame baru yang dah lama terbengkalai
7) read lots of book.. target 3 books this holiday.. probably.. all 3 business books
8) start writing article on health yang dah lama terperap dalam otak ni..

for my hubby n kimi
1) kemas kimi toys, compile education material for him
2) kemas baju2 lama dia and simpan yang tak muat

for my business

1) make my list name, the person that i would like to meet and share
2) help my hubby to make 6 figure income permonth by next year..
3) make more many so i can give more later... tarhet my own 4 set by this months.. u can do it babe!!
4) tender loving care... remember that when im deal with my customer
5) buat iklan dalam magz wanita or utusan..
6) flyer yang aku angan2 kan bilala nak siap.. waaa

Saturday, October 18, 2008

changes in life...

Posted by Mrs Haiqal at 8:17 PM 0 comments
rindunya nak tulis blog sendiri.. last tulis dah setahun lepas.. sekarang banyak betul changes happened in my life.. dalam masa setahun je.. now 19 October 2008.. baru lepas raya hari ke 19..

1. hakimy dah setahun 6 bulan.. dah sgt2 pandai.. cuma tak pandai cakap je lagi.. tapi memang tak puas main ngan dia.. tabiat terbaru.. tgk barney or elmo sambil minum susu depan tv.. kena buka lampu liplap raya kat luar kalau keluar rumah.. suka naik keta volwagen tok ayah n naik sendiri motor skuter papa.. suka banget cerita upin n ipin.. akan tarik tangan n tunjuk apa dia nak.. pandai tunjuk eyes, mouth n nose.. tapi bab nose.. papa dia ajar ajaran sesat.. ada patut masuk tgn dlm nose sambil sengih2.. sabar je la.. flash kad dah tak nak baca.. tapi minat books now.. kalau tunjuk flash kad ada lagi yang dia ingat.. tak sia2 usaha yang lama. hakimy dah stop bf.. heheh.. masa 15 bulan.. sebab mummy dia pregnant lagi.. tapi sampai skrang tade susu still nak isap juga sebelum tidur.. lepas gian.. kesian juga tgk... dia tak puas lagi minum susu ibu dah mummy dia preggy lagi.. first 2 bulan preggy mmmg asik muntah2. mkn pun tak cukup.. susu stok trus trun,.. terpaksa sumbat formula..walaupun selalu botol tu kea campak.. tapi alhamdullilah dia dapat rasa khasiat susu ibu al this long..
bab makan memang lemah.. dia tak nak makan sgt.. masuk makanan dia tolak balik..siap tutup mulut rapat2 lagi.. last2 mama dia surender.. bibik je rajin nak kejar bagi dia makan.. satu cabaran yang hebat..

2. my life also has changed a lot.. i have achieved one of my dream.. to futher master within 5 years i have quit my job n fultime student under Uitm.. semua berlaku tanpa sedar.. law of attraction agaknya.. dah lama cari peluang nak sambung master.. hasrat 3 tahun tercapai jua.. asal ada peluang je pegi cari.. dari nak buat part time tetiba jadi full time.. bulan 4 pegi interview.. bulan 6 dpt offer. patut pegi ausie bulan 7 tapi mana la nak sempat urus anak n hubby.. cannot2.. then rayu dpt ukm.. berenti keje bulan julai.. terkejut bos.. notis 24 jam.. hehe2.. dah start blajar almost 3 months..

belajar ok.. best.. cuma asg malas nak buat.. tapi bila hantar mmg rasa perfect la.. heheh.. perasan.. presentation alhamdullilah.. most lecturer puji n suka.. alhamdulliah.. byk gak stay up mlm2 buat asg.. baru byk idea tgh mlm.. now exam start dari 2 nov until 13 nov.. satu buku pun tak baca lagi.. sibuk buat asg lagi.. esok kena hantar.. apalaa nak jadi.. harini mesti siap k.. hehe

the best nak masuk baby kedua.. pegi bandung n jakarta holiday bulan 7 then muntah2 kat sana.. rupanya preggy.. mujur tak pegi oversea.. pengsan sorg2 nak jaga baby n anak lagi.. hakimy akan dpt adik bln 3 tahun dpn.. yeahhh!!

3. hubby.. alhamdullilah.. rezeki murah sejak bulan 4 tahun nih.. cuba bisnes baru.. alhamdullilah.. dah lama tak rasa duit yang betul2 duit.. tahun ni baru dpt bernafas skit.. banyak dah boleh buat.. tak pernah mimpi nak rasa income 5 digit.. now its come true.. mr H beli keta pasang NGV nye.. lagi senang nak buat bisnes dia.. hutang kredit kad setle.. dah boleh saving n invest.. n boleh bagi duit ke mak ayah.. tu yg penting.

4. n last sekali.. antara impian sekian lama is nak masuk tv.. angan2 nak masuk WHI tapi dapat NLKO kira oklaa.. 10hb lepas time kelas tetiba tv9 call minta jadi jemputan utk the next day show.. tanya mrH.. dia sentiasa sokong.. so selamba je pegi walaupun takde pengalaman.. tapi ok kot rasanya.. malu nak tgk siaran semual. tak berani lagi tgk diri sendiri.. hehhe..

nway.. i really thanks to Allah for all the bless and nikmat he give to me.. 2008
is a good year to us.. Alhamdullilah..

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

The Details Of Our Life

Posted by Mrs Haiqal at 2:01 AM 0 comments
i have come across this story twice and it still touch my heart each time i read it..
The Details Of Our Life
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words; instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Zana. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Zana so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Zana. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Zana about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realised she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life tome. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Zana about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me. She had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out.. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Zana opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Zana, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished. Then she touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said.. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Zana, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realised that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Zana seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:
I'll carry you out every morning until death does us apart.
The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah ... blah ... blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008


Posted by Mrs Haiqal at 12:10 AM 2 comments
today my 26th birthday.. plus anniversary 3 tahun kawin. wedding sama hari dengan my birhtday. tak sangka ek.. dahla lama kahwin. aku terbaca research dlm magz says that.. people attract to each other and fall in love due to some hormon (i.e adrenalin) but this hormon only last for three years.Means after that, we couldn't rely on our love only to survive with our relationship and days to days life.. we must take some actions to have that love agains.. emm.. might be right but take things positively.. the points is takbleh takes your relationship for granted. if you want your marriage to success, u must work hard on it..put some commitment. lagi lama kahwin lagi banyak effort kena amik utk pastikan that your love accounts tak kering.
aku suka konsep love accounts ni. it means, whenever ko buat something good toward your partner, you cash in some money to your love accounts, but bila marah or gaduh or ada salah apa2, you will widhraw some money from your love account. accounts yang negative yangg bahaya sebab bila dah takde apa2 dlm accounts, you have nothing about that relationship yang you hargai.
Agak setuju, lately im quite sensitive and terasa hati for litle2 thing. contoh klau minta tolong hubby agak lambat nak tolong or mcm tak nak tolong je.. terasa skit, bahasa kurang mesra pun terasa gak.. yer la mana nak sama dulu masa mula2 kawin tolong tutupkan pintu.. sekarang.. dah tak pandai nak tutup pintu ke.. amboi manisnya ayat.. haha.. tapi have to eveluate my side juga.. if u want thing to change, be the changes that you want. akupun dah sibuk ngan bby. everything bby will comes first. actually bleh je sebenarnya bila ada masa skit, cash in something to our love bank account. eg dulu slalu facialkan muka hubby,since ada bby tak pernah nak scrub
muka dia.. Breakfast pun jarang nak teman makan.. em.. have to do some changes.. good luck to me..

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